My Life Should be a show...

After today and after this posing I should probably erase my name and take out my picture from this blog.


Anyways...

I have days where I just want to dress up as a woman, and today was one of them. I do not feel like a woman (which baffles people_) I just think it is fun to dress up as one--or as Stacey would say "a trashy slutty woman". This morning I decided to also have sex...I hadn't had penetration sex in more than 3 weeks. I knew this guy and he is "str8" but likes fem guys that dress up...so I was like come overrrr. My mom, of course, took a long as time getting out of the house....he finally showed up we had sex--bad sex and that was that. I was wearing these knee length boots that tie up in the back, this mini skirt, and some shirt...he came really fast and his excuse was "this was the first time i have had sex in a really long time"

This made me realize that sex to me...or anal sex IS FUN! but it gets to a point where you r like "is this it?" I mean I was changing positions when i heard "I came already" and what did I say--"Oh, Ok, want a papertowel??" ..,with all the people I have been with its kind of like...good, so so, bad bad bad bad bad excellent bad bad bad.....so it is not comforting....during sex I just kept looking at my boots...i was like ohh they r gorgeoussss! why didnt i take them to school lol lol

so the day progressed...and this old hook up calls me...i have hooked up with him for agesssss....i started when i was 16....I used to love him at some point but anyways...he is like lets have sex...and i was like no i dont want sex..i do ant oral....lets have a 3some!!!!!!!

sooo i email this kid i had slept with last yr and i was like heyyyy want a 3some..he is like yeah i wanna get fucked...i was like thats cool cus i dont want to....so we meet up at 5 30 at the kids apartment...we have sex..or rather they have sex as i watch him fuck the other kid...i was so amused it was better than watching a movie....we leave and pass out for a couple of hours....


i had been talking to this guy for sometime and he likes guys that dress up...his wife is also out of the country till early Jan. so he invited me over...so i decide to dress....

make up, hair, dress, shoes, lalala and during all this I was hoping for 2 things
1. plz dont let my car break down
2. plz NO COP STOP ME

so i get there...oh wait...my riend who loves dressing up wanted to go so it was supposed to be a mini 3some......we get there all dressed up and this guy is cute...blonde blue eyed white guy (nothing terribly interesting) and we start talking --he starts touching both of us as we make out with each other and then we go for the kill lol lol

i pull down his underware and what do i see.... A TEDDY BEAR DICK

he must have been like 5
BITCH U AINT NO 7

GUYSSSSSSSS STOP MEASURING UR DICKS FROM UR BUTTHOLE TO THE TIP OF IT.....PLZZZZZZZZZZZZZZ DICKS SHOULD BE MEASURE FROM THE BASE TO THE TIP NOT FROM BUTTHOLE TO TIP!!!

so my friend and i are totally turned off
and we were like we r sorry we have to go we arent feeling it...he gets pissed off and offers to buy us new dresses for the 31!!!

we said no we left and went to get a bite to eat....laughed and laughed as we took off our bras in one of the intersections, took off our skirts in the other, and tried to dress up as "guys"

the night is still young....but i think i am staying and wiritng my long overdue paper...if it isnt that way ill write about it...maybe ill meet some1 else !!

So this is how my X-mas has been...

I arrived in Miami Friday afternoon. Delta Airlines lost my luggage and I was too tired and dazed to care. I arrived to find my lesbian annoying aunt at the house. I usually get along with her but she has been drinking alot and she gets annoying and I hate hanging out with her. I was not feeling very x-mas like this yr, so that is my summary of the holidays-- I did not go out and I wasn't feeling well. I went to this lesbian bar where my aunt fought this other butch woman for this femme dyke....and we were kicked out after like 5 minutes of having gotten there. I was very uncomfortable at the club, I rarely hang out with lesbians--its always STR8 FAG HAGS AND FAGS ! so anyways today I went shopping and dinner with a friend (MISMIS). We always have great fun together ! We shopped for purses and clothing--nothing terribly interesting except for the people we encountered. At first it was the infomous guy I will only name as "Qban" . Now, this guy--he is a character--he is this ultra femme top that both Mismis and I have talked to or used to talk to. The difference is that he fucked me once and i sucked him off in this XXX store once last yr. Anyways, we ignored him and just sort of giggled as we went by. I went into A&F and saw this kid from my HS...ugh I hate seeing ghosts!!! He was nice and had a nice ass but i mean I am so over it...I did not have many friends in HS--I was a big faggot!! so I do not care about the people I went 2 school with and I have kept a very few people at hand from those years. I went to AX and then BAM !!! a man i sucked off in the front of the store.....i smiled and leaned over and said "i sucked him off...9 inches" and Mismis responds by "Realllyyyyy ummmmm !!"....then I see this other fag from my Christopher Columbus Closeted Catholic Boys High School years...this big faggot that used to be a cheerleader..she was danicng her little bottom self to Justin while wearing this AX shirt...COME ON FAG...SPEND A BIT MORE AND BUY REAL Armani. We see each other and mutually ignore each other.. I go into Zara and BAM! this kid i had hooked up with a looong ass time ago...we also ignore each other as I screamed at the signt of this semi hideous semi glam dress. We walk across Macy's and this other gay kid sees me..and I completely ignored him...i think he said my name i walked away laughing trying to hide his voice with my laughter. I mean he wasnt mean, he was just bland and i dunno...he is cute tho and seems like a top. So I go into GAP trying to find a woman's puffy red vest and cannot find it...all i can find are queens...fags fags everywhere...god damnit Miami is full of us !! We decide to go over to the Grove and have dinner at the Cheesecake...we wanted cock and weed. We began to sing old spanish tunes from fierce spanish women singers, we started 2 scream "fuck me" i am a slut" and all these random things at the restaurant and then left. I was feeling like shit..i stuffed my face with Jamaican shrimp...what i really wanted was the waiters black dick--ummm Jamaican dick...the best! So I drop off Mismis i call a hook up pass by and we have oral...wasnt as fun or as big as i thought it used to be...the weed i never got---Miami has no weed...all we have are pills and coke...goddamn .....

What ? and Why?

Ok, so this has nothing to do with my break or my Amsterdam trip...Some guy in school, who I have never met, set a picture of me dress as tinkerbell on his profile a few weeks ago and I did not really get why he would do that. The night before or a few nights before, I do not remember, I accidentally and unknowingly met one of his fraternity brothers and well--it wasn't the best of meets. I was drunk and I threw a beer bottle in some bushes at the front of his house, he got mad and demanded to know my name. If you do not know my name around WM u need to get out more...I mean i am campus celebrity!!! HELLO !! Sooooooooo, I refused to give him my name unless he revealed his. He said some fake name there and I told him mine, I did not think anything of him, I do not even remember his face it was so dark, and frankly I just do not care who it was. Soooo whatever, I find out this guy set a pic of me I send him an email asking why and then he takes it off...all is fine. Then 2 days ago I get an email on facebook from him:
From: Seamus Owens
To: Freddy J Gonzalez
Subject: Hey Cutie Pie
Message: Freddy boy I hear you were over at my house the other night all dressed up... I wish I had been here to see that sexy bod.
xoxo,
Moosamania

Now, I love admiration and I know I do look good in drag, but I just do not care to play this stupid game with him. I have not met him, I do not wanna meet him, and the most I knew about him was that he had dated some girls I know. I swear that if I would see him at a party I wouldn't even recognize him. I have a very bad phothographic memory and unless I actively want to know who you are I won't recognize you, I am too mch into myself to care about anyone else in that sense. So, I know his actions have to do with homophobic feelings or making fun of me cus i like to sometimes dress up as a girl or whatever. Come on, I do not know you, I never want to get to know you--why does it bother you. It is also funny how in his fraternity there is an obviously open gay guy--even though he claims to LOVE GEORGE BUSH. I do not care if he is homophobic; ACCEPTANCE IS NOT NEEDED NOR REQUIRED. I am not on the running for Miss America, therefore, I care little about being liked. In fact, for those of you that know me, I enjoy not being liked by everyone, and I do not work in order to be liked (and i hate people that do). It i also weird that he sent me that e-mail cus I have not dressed up in a few months nor have I gone to his house or frat house. I am still debating on answering his post; do i dedicate time to this person I do not know or do i ignore it and just bitch about it? lol
I told my mom about the whole deal and I showed her the email and she just laughed...and she said "Do they really think you are bothered by it, you have been out since 7th grade"

lololololol

WELL, AS I WAS WRITING THIS I DECIDED TO ANSWER BACK... I WROTE :

"I do not remember being over your house or anyone elses house dress up...anyways I am sorry I missed you. You are SOOO HOT!!!

XOXOXO

FREDLICIOUSCUNT

HAHAHAHAHAHAH I HOPE HE ENJOYS MY NICKNAME!

Reasons as to why there is a Blog...

I am going to study abroad in Amsterdam my second semester junior year. I will be in Amsterdam from Feb.1-June 8th "studying" Gender Studies and the like. I want to keep everyone informed of what goes on during those 4 months that I will be in Europe; my travels all around the continent, the people I'll meet, and the experiences I'll have. I plan to make this trip a crazy one--no limits, no restraints basically everything goes. I am going with a very open mind and with expectations of my own (coughs). I am not going to keep an actual diary--I could never. This blog will serve as such and at the same time it will allow people back home to know what is going on. I will try to be a religious blog user, I will be very detailed and won't care who reads it--if it offends you do not read it! Anyhow, wait for my postings and comment, I would love to hear from everyone. Oh yeah, I might get addicted to this sooooooo I might even post things happening during my X-mas break...My life is just beyond interesting dahlings !


GO AMSTERDAM '07 !


Universiteit van Amsterdam !!!!

No William and Mary for a Semester...yay!